Life

A good bit has happened since my last post.A heart attack on August 13th, my step father passed away, and a divorce.Now the good news 5 new and precious angels arrived .Such is the process of life as the bitter mixes with the sweet.Winter is just about over and as I sit on the back porch I feel spring all around.We would like to think we could spare those we love from pain and hardship but it is not a matter of if but when it comes.
When I was having my heart attack God gave me an amazing peace.I wasn't scared but had an attitude of extreme gratitude for everything and everyone He had blessed me with.I also discovered that a heart attack is not as painful as a broken heart.The body is amazing as are the health care workers who helped me through this time.My family was amazing as well.I am back to doing almost everything I use to do but Idid find out I am a horrible patient.
Justin and I went to see Jimmy at the nursing home-it had been over a year since we had seen him.I put my hand on his head and said  a silent pray to God to please free him from this hell.Although he and I had never had a father son relationship it saddened me to see him live like this.He never knew how to invest in others and thus in the end he was without the closeness family usually brings. He was congested and spitting up a foaming looking substance.As we were leaving Justin said he was dying.This was around 3 at 1130 they called to say he had passed.My prayer was answered and Justin was prophetic.The funeral was a reunion of sorts with Colman and Eric,and Erica,and others on Jimmys side I hadn't seen in years.I was a pallbearer as was Josh,Justin,Eric and Colman.We said good bye to Jimmy at a peaceful country cemetery in Calhoun.All the hard feelings over the years had all melted away years ago and a touch of sadness remains when I think of him.
Divorce is a mix of many emotions.Sadness ,anger,releaf,hopefulness and remorse.I was fortunate to help Justin during this time but honestly didn't always know if I was giving him good advice. It was obvious to me after about 6 months that there was trouble and now after 4 years they too decided that.Sometimes there is addition by subtraction.He has a bright future.In 15 months he will move and have a great career in medicine.Hopefully marry again and have kids and a dog. His exwife will finally have to go to work and make her own way.I believe her journey will be filled with pain ,regret,and hardship but in the end I wish her peace for we all shared some good times.
So I wasn't sad to get 2015 in the books.We have to be happy in the now time.Live each day and not be afraid to love each other.